6. Knowing

December 2013.

Occasionally, or most often, and I know you've all felt this, there's a knowing deep within your gut (as we say).  We have this intrinsic ability to just know.  Some of us have tried or have been told to shut that ability off, or have allowed ourselves to become very numb to it, distrusting it, confused or overwhelmed by it.  Even then, I wonder if every cell in our body tries to convey those messages that we are meant to acknowledge with little subliminal or supraliminal flashes, stimulating low level emotional activity. Or maybe it's louder, in the physical, seemingly unassociated form.  This knowing can easily become blurred by intense desire.  Still we seem to always have some small part of us speaking the truth, knowing what is right.

1. Life is Experiential

(08/20/10)  As the pages of my life turn, the micro choices of the moments become more apparent and the places they lead to less imaginary.

To be here now is so much more serious to my ego which is reluctant to admit, I just don't have enough time to be passionate about every interest to the same degree .  Still I stubbornly try, only to become overwhelmed and continually anxious about time passing.  I don't wear a watch yet I hear time tick by, feel the day move past, hyper aware and disappointed with my loss of it. This affliction is attached to me and I can't shake it loose. There must be a way to extract this perception of time from my focus and allow time to flow freely without remorse.

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